Dear God. Thank you for choosing me. What an honor you bestowed upon me to be his mother. You gave me such a beautiful gift to be able to witness one of your miracles right before my eyes every single day.
It has definitely not always been easy – there have been several moments of uncertainty, and some days were down right unbearable.
But, I learned more than ever to drop to my knees and lean on you.
As a NICU mother, I am personally unsure how anyone makes it through their NICU journey without you.
Friends and family were supportive, but you were and have continued to be the one constant that I knew I could always turn to and rely on.
He really is amazing.
My biggest question is, am I enough?
I know I am not worthy of any of the gifts you have given me.
But, especially William – am I worthy of this gift you have bestowed upon me?
Am I being the mother that William deserves?
What if I am unable to guide him as you would have wanted me to?
Please continue to guide me and show me the way.
Just know, that I am forever grateful for William.
I am unsure why you chose me, but I do not take one single day for granted that I have been given with that beautiful boy!
As the years go by, I have been able to embrace my tumultuous pregnancy, his emergent preterm delivery, all of those days in the NICU watching him fight for his life, my tears, my fears, all of the uncertainty, worry, and grief, as a gift.
It’s been almost 7 years since he entered into this world. We knew from the very beginning that he was special, but we could not have possibly been able to know just how much. I give the credit to you. There is no other way to explain how well he has done and continues to do! The only rationale is that he is absolutely one of your miracles.
So today, one day before my son’s 7th birthday, I wanted to tell you thank you. I feel as though I cannot express my gratitude enough to you. I absolutely cherish the gift you gave me.
Please continue to guide me and protect him.
Amen.
